By John Mamas
I live my life in a daze
In euphoria, head in the clouds
When I do interact with others
Their words are smooth and sweet
Clouds paint my mind
Hues of pinks, blues, and whites
Starlight graces my face
A dazzling reminder of a world without feeling
The vastness pleases me
The soothing harps ease my soul
An angel’s whisper echoes in these valleys
“Feeling halts the healing”
Yet, it isn’t always pretty in paradise
Phantoms come in the form of suppressed thoughts
I waltz with devils in the blandness
For, it is not darkness that haunts me
It is the dim light and the off-white walls The encumbering clouds blinding my sight
One pluck of a heartstring
Leads to the overflowing of the floodgates
I must find shelter in the vast storm
For healing trumps all feeling
Shrouded in desolation, I am lost Clouded in the heavens, no northern star
My mind wanders without thought
My heart wanders without connection
I Am Numb.